I am so thankful for being a DAD!!!

I have struggles in my life, but yet I am alive and kicking! I do have to say this that if I didn't have Ryder in my life it would be hard to be happy!!  I can't explain or even try to tell you how much love, affection and caring I have for this 3'6" little man! But does he make me want to be a better person, DAD and friend. HELL YEAH!!! I am blessed with a loving and forgiving family.  I have learned a lot through them and I appreciate them more than I say.

I am having issues with my Gall Bladder and it has been causing me more pain and BS than I want to share.  But it has also made me look at how I am living and what I need to fix.  First and foremost I need to fix me and heaven knows this will take a lifetime or two!!!  But in that process of me learning about being a dad I have found the true me and I really like where I am going.  It seems I am at my happiest and most satisfied when Ryder is around.  I have tried to fill in the days I don't have Ryder with work, but that has not been the best idea I have had.  Bartending at 41 isn't the easiest and it has put me back in the drinking life.  I don't like when my mind is clouded by Alcohol.  Doctors have told me not to drink anymore until they figure out what is wrong with my gall bladder, and doctors before that told me never to drink again.  I am taking this as a higher power telling me I don't need alcohol in my life.  Trust me it won't be easy but it also won't be hard.  I just need to get back to the basics: Working out, taking care of Ryder and love being an Average Single DAD!!

Thanks for your ears in my battle of life experiences and I Love You all especially my family!!!
Till I need to talk more about myself or Ryder.
Later,
Chris
Average Single Dad
averagesingledad@gmail.com